STANDARD DISCLAIMERS:  They ain't mine, and if their owner, Dick Wolf, knew what I was doing with `em, he'd probably have a coronary.  No profits made, etc., etc., so hopefully he won't sue me when he recovers. This takes place in Season Five, sometime after the first episode, and mentions a character from "Family Values" (I do overlap cases, since I figure that's how it occurs in reality).  I don't follow the dates given on the show since they don't seem to be continuous between episodes, but I do try to follow the episode sequence. Send comments to trigfish@yahoo.com.  I love feedback of all kinds--even the "Ewww, that's gross!" kind. And just in case it hasn't already been made abundantly clear, this is *slash*.  So, we're talking M/M NC-17 here. If that's not your dish, turn back now!  Last warning...OK, here we go! ********************************************* **One Night in Gramercy Park** Detective Logan looked up at the clock on the wall, realised that the sun must have set hours ago, and sighed.  Lennie had left early for the week-end, as had a good chunk of the 27's force. Even Lt. Anita had closed up shop around 4:00pm, planning to pick up her family and head out to Conneticut for a week-end of bonding.  The reason for the sudden evacuation was the warm, beautiful weather--probably the last indian summer week-end before winter began to truly invade New York.  So, the citizens had been fleeing their fair city all day, in search of one last chance at fresh country air and sun before buckling down for the coming cold--and that included the cops.  Only the poor saps stuck on roster were still hanging around...along with Logan. Lennie had asked him to come along on his trip upstate to visit one of his daughters, but Mike avoided family gatherings--either his own or others--as a matter of principle.  Besides, he wasn't in the mood for company.  That now-familiar restlessness was back with a vengeance, and he could feel shadows jumping at him in the periphery of his vision, and until they backed off, he wasn't leaving the brightly-lit, always bustling confines of the precinct.  Once upon a time, a night of cruising the local meat markets and picking up something feminine, uncomplicated, and disposable would have done the trick.  Or he would have just called up one of the many numbers in his address book--over 300 names, all looking for a good time.  But, none of that seemed to work anymore...not after-- Logan cut himself off mentally with a rough shake.  'No way.  I'm not getting into that again.'  In an effort to distract himself, he shuffled through all the papers he'd spread across his desk, trying to sort out what he should do next.  There was the final draft of the Nguyen case to write up, and Forensics had sent down the final report on the Grimsey apartment. Then, there was the Laura Madsen case--no, definitely not that one.  He wanted to drown in nice, safe boring busywork.  The Nguyen case, then--a garden-variety armed robbery gone bad.  Mind numbing and time-consuming. Ten minutes later, it was beginning to work.  Slowly, slowly, his overactive brain began sliding into neutral and the shadows started to recede.  He clacked away at the ancient typewriter, wishing once again that the city would spring for desktop computers.  Ever since his nephew introduced him to the wonderful world of PC's a couple of years ago, he'd come to loathe working in plain old paper and ink.  He smiled faintly to himself, remembering the look on Jeff's face when he described the hardware-free environment in which he worked ("That's like, *so* paleolithic, Uncle Mike!"). Suddenly, the phone at his side rang loudly, startling him back to reality. Glancing down at his work, Logan was saddened to note that he was almost finished the report.  Soon, he'd have to think of something else distracting to do.  Annoyed, he reached for the phone.  "Logan." A familiar whisky chuckle sent a tiny shiver trickling down his nape.  "Hi. I was hoping I wasn't the only one still at the office." Logan grinned despite himself, feeling his mood lighten for the first time in hours. "Yeah, well, you know what they say about rest and the wicked." That chuckle again, deeper this time, suddenly darkening intimately.  "You feeling wicked, Detective?" The large, drafty squad room suddenly became hot and low on oxygen as Logan felt the words hit him.  Jesus, but Jack McCoy was good at that.  With a few words, the man had Logan flushing and fidgeting in his seat, his clothes suddenly itchy and tight. Must be a lawyer thing.  He had to take a deep, calming breath before he could answer.  "Always." "Mmm.  I was hoping you might be.  You almost done?" As if he could get anything productive done *now*.  "Pretty much." "Me, too.  Hungry?" Oh, God!  Logan hoped fervently that no one was looking in his particular direction right now.  It must be pretty damned obvious that he wasn't talking shop by now, and the 27th's rumour mill was on par with that of any juniour high school.    Hopefully, they'd just think it was one of his on-off girlfriends.  "Very." "In that case, we can't go to your place.  Unless, through some miraculous event, you actually went shopping." Logan smiled as the seductive, teasing tone faded a little in real exasperation.  In the past five days since they reached their... understanding, Jack had spent four nights at his apartment, and the complaints about lack of groceries had become something of a tradition. Mike had little interest in cooking, and consequently either ate before he got home, or ordered take-out, both of which Jack seemed adverse to doing, stating that he ate enough of  `that crap' at work.  "I think I still have that old lettuce.  And some beer, maybe." "Nevermind.  Tonight, it's my treat.  I'll give you directions to my place." "Wow...my first official visit to the McCoy manor." "True.  I'll have to think of something...appropriate for tonight, then." The way the whisky-husky voice murmured the words, as well as their many implications, made Mike miss the directions the first time around, and had to ask for a repeat, much to McCoy's amusement. "Think you can find your way, Detective?" "You bet your ass...well, actually, you are, aren't you?" "Cute.  If you want to find out, you'd better show up in a couple of hours." Mike hung up in a far better frame of mind than he'd been in all day.  Not even bothering to finish the nearly-done Nguyen write-up, he shoved it and the other various files into his "open" box.   Humming unconciously to himself, he cleared his desk quickly, then reached for his jacket. "You cutting out, Mike?"  He spun to face a middle-aged detective in a badly rumpled suit.  "Thought you were gonna keep us company." Mike threw the man a familiar mischievious grin.  "Something better came up, Duggan.   You guys keep having fun without me." * * * Logan stopped by his apartment long enough to shower and change clothes, then set out for Gramercy Park.  He easily found the right place, being as familiar with this neighbourhood as any other in Manhattan.   He drove by beautifully renovated, sprawling homes and elegant parks, through a retail sector full of curio shops and banks, to a hidden away cul-de-sac decorated with tiny gingerbread-like brownstones.   The relative tranquility that made Gramercy stand out in this city of lights seemed to concentrate on this very street, enveloping the tree-sheltered old buildings.  Volvos, Lincolns, and other yuppiemobiles lined the street...except for a familiar sleek motorcycle in front of one door. `Wonder what the neighbours think of that.'  Mike grinned at the thought of Jack with his bike and jeans and smartass attitude living amongst bankers and lawyers.  Then, as he rang the doorbell, he remembered with a start that Jack *was* a lawyer. He kept forgetting that. "It's open!" came the muffled reply from beyond the door.  Mike hesitated, stunned, then tentatively turned the knob.  The door swung open easily.  A heavy, mouthwatering aroma spilled out at him as he entered.  Mike glanced around the brightly lit rooms, locking the door behind him instinctively. He didn't know what he'd been expecting, but this wasn't it.  In direct contrast to the quiet, orderly street outside, inside was a riot of colors and shapes.   Mismatched furniture lay scattered about, covered with various articles of clothing.  Newspapers, magazines, and case files blended seamlessly across most flat surfaces, interspersed with framed photographs of nameless people and places.   An expensive sound system--the only thing that was free of debris--filled the place with Ella Fitzgerald's serene alto. Mike took it all in, shocked into silence.  Then, he remembered the paper-strewn, post-it-notes-covered office that Claire complained about regularly, and realized that he should have expected as much. He followed his nose towards the bright, warm kitchen at the end of the tiny house, and was stunned for the third time in as many minutes when he saw EADA McCoy dressed in faded jeans and a white undershirt, tending several bubbling pots expertly. "You timed it perfectly!  The gumbo's almost ready, the rice is set, and the crawfish just finished steaming.  Can you pass me the coriander?"  Jack flashed him a grin, then returned his attention to the pots, waving distractedly with his free hand at a ceramic bowl on the counter near Mike. It was filled with some sort of chopped, sweet-smelling green plant that Mike guessed was herbal. Bewildered, Mike passed him the bowl, which earned him a muffled "Thanks" as its contents were carefully emptied into one of the more delectable-smelling pots.   He watched mutely as the other man worked. Much as he loved good food, he'd never had much interest in its preparation--he had neither the time nor the patience.  But, he'd sat in Elaine Cerreta's kitchen--both at her home and at her five-star Italian restaurant--enough times to know a pro when he saw one. EADA Jack McCoy, lawyer and motorcycle enthusiast, wearer of Armani suits and faded jeans...and now, apparently, he was a gourmet chef as well.   Mike grinned, wondering how many other surprises Jack had in store for him tonight. As if in answer to his unasked question, he suddenly felt something brush past his leg.  He jumped instinctively, then looked down.  A noticeably overweight short-haired calico cat met his gaze cooly. "Oh, that's Chloe.  She usually shows up around dinnertime, especially if seafood's on the menu." Mike stared at the animal with a mixture of irritation and dismay. "You own a cat, McCoy?" he demanded accusingly.  Jack looked up at him as he moved the heavier pot off the range, then smiled at his expression. "You don't like cats, Detective?" Mike shrugged vaguely.  He didn't much care for cats one way or the other...or dogs, or birds, or whatever other type of animal people always insisted on sharing their homes with.  "I'm not into pets.  And, besides, I would have figured you for a Doberman kind of guy.  You know, to go with the `bike." Jack laughed as he stirred the pot, and Mike reflected not for the first time on how much he liked that rich whisky laugh.  "Nah.  I love big dogs, but that kind of creature would go nuts in this pint-sized condo.  Besides, Chloe's a leftover from my last girlfriend of a few years ago.  She took the sofa and new TV.  I got the cat.  Sometimes, I think I got the better deal." "Uh-huh."  Mike and the cat eyed each other a moment more, then the animal turned its back to him indifferently and moved towards Jack, twining sinuously around his legs and mewing a soft complaint.  Mike watched in bemusement as the man that most junior DAs lived in fear of reached down to rub the tiny head affectionately.   His bemusement quickly turned to dismay when Jack pulled one of the ruby-red crawfish that was making his mouth water out of the pot and gave it to the cat.  It quickly snatched the delicacy and headed for a corner of the kitchen that was obviously considered its own, where it proceeded to devour its find. "No wonder the thing is fat." Twin glares were levelled at him--one black and almond-shaped, the other golden and slitted.  Mike laughed despite himself. "What's so funny, Logan?" Mike controlled himself, hearing the coldness enter the warm, seductive voice.  "I'm just wondering if it's just luck, or if you go out of your way to break every stereotype out there."  He smiled fondly. "Jack McCoy, the walking exception." The coldness faded, and Mike was rewarded with one of those playful grins that he was coming to associate with Jack.  It usually meant that there was something mischievious going on beneath that uncombed hair. Smiling slyly, Jack crooked a finger invitingly at him. "C'mere, Detective." Mike certainly didn't need to be asked twice.  He'd been wanting to invade Jack's personal space since he heard his sensuously velvet voice on the phone over an hour ago.  He stepped into the pool of heat and succulent scents coming from the pots surrounding them, till even they faded into the heat and scent that was Jack McCoy.  Dark almond-shaped eyes watched his every move with mild amusement, and when he got close enough, a long-fingered hand reached out to brush through his hair.  That was another thing with Jack--he was always running his fingers through Mike's hair. He could make the gesture gentle and soothing, as he often did during their post-coital lazing.  Or, he could make it into one of the most erotic things Mike had ever experienced, like he did now.  Shuddering as nimble fingers danced caressingly along his skull, Mike slid his arms eagerly along Jack's back.  He leaned in for a kiss, but was stopped by a soft finger on his lips.  He regarded the other man, puzzled, while Jack stirred the pot still at his side.  Then, he pulled out the ladle, which was coated in gumbo, and held it out to Mike. "Is it ready, Mike?" Mike grinned, then licked the offered ladle gingerly.  Almost immediately, the taste hit him.  Pungent, rich, and delicious. Mike's eyes snapped open in surprise.  God, that tasted good! "Thank you, Detective."  It was only when Jack chuckled that Mike realized that he'd spoken aloud.  "I try my best.  Here.  You spilled some."  Mike felt the familiar rush of molten heat rise up in him as fine, strong fingers cupped his chin and brushed along his lower lip.  His breath caught in his throat as he watched that same finger return to Jack's mouth, and be licked clean of any remaining gumbo.  Suddenly, his jeans were uncomfortably tight. He leaned in to devour that tempting mouth....and growled impatiently when he was stopped again.  The dark eyes were laughing, but he could see the reciprocal desire in their depths clearly. "I don't want it to get cold, Mike.  Besides," a light kiss brushed his lips--delicious and far too brief.  "Dessert always comes after the main course, m'boy." Jack patted Mike's ass playfully.  "The table is set.  Get the wine from the fridge while I bring this over." Mike sighed resignedly as Jack pulled out of his embrace and returned to his gumbo.  Walking a little stiffly (his jeans were still chafing), he moved towards the refridgerator, and pulled out a bottle of red wine.  He glanced at the label, and was stunned at what he saw.  "Jesus, Jack!  This is a 1987 Merlot!  What'ya do? Walk into the store and ask for the most ridiculously expensive wine they had?" "Actually, yes." Mike stared at him, realizing that he was serious.  "Shit.  What's the occaision?" Jack shrugged as he filled the dishes on the table with the heavy gumbo, adding rice and crawfish along the side.  "I just felt like splurging.  I rarely get the chance to really go all out these days. Hell, it's been over two months since I had a chance to cook like this.  Besides, it tastes better if you know you had to sacrifice for it."  He spun to face Mike again.  "And, anyways, how do you know so much about wine, Detective?  I'd never even heard of the damned thing till that snotty French guy at the winery pulled it out." Mike smiled as he popped the cork expertly, letting the heavy, rich bouquet fill the tiny kitchen.  It complemented the spicy food perfectly.  "My grandfather.  He spent countless summers trying to get me to appreciate the fact that human civilization revolved around whether you could tell a Savoy white from a Vicchy." Jack laughed.  "Did it work?" "Nope.  Despite his best efforts, I still only drink Guiness.  But," he sniffed the wine appreciatively.  "I'll make an exception this time."  He filled Jack's and his own glasses as they sat.  "So, how do you know so much about cajun cooking, Counselor?" Jack grinned at him rakishly from beneath an unruly shock of dark hair, and Mike felt his skin prickle pleasantly.  "My grandmother.   She spent countless summers trying to get my sister to appreciate the fact that human civilization revolved around making jerk chicken and crawfish gumbo properly." Mike laughed.  "I guess it didn't work exactly as planned." "Not exactly, no.  But, my grandmother figured that one out of two wasn't bad."  He raised his glass, sloshing the blood red contents lightly.  "To well-meaning if ineffective grandparents." Mike chuckled and followed suit.  "Hell, if this tastes half as good as I'm thinking it will, I'd say they were pretty damned effective." They clinked glasses. "Well, then," Jack raised his fork.  "Let's find out just how effective they were, shall we?" Mike had rarely enjoyed a meal so much. The food was indeed as delectable as suspected, and their conversation was light and happy. Jack made him laugh at his ruthlessly accurate descriptions of various judges he'd had to deal with that week, then Mike returned the favour by recalling his and Lennie's futile attempt to interview a nightclub full of drag queens without getting felt up.  One in particular had taken a great liking to Detective Briscoe, much to his partner's amusement.  Then, the conversation moved to whether Harleys' superior horsepower compensated for their slower acceleration times in comparison to Yamahas.  Then, they suddenly got on the topic of baseball, which became companionably heated when they realized that they supported rival teams.  Heady rich wine flowed, spicy seafood disappeared.  Soon, Mike found himself gazing at Jack across a graveyard of empty dishes and glasses, replete and more than a little punchy on expensive french red. "Wow.  Are all the meals this great at Chateau McCoy?" "Only when I'm properly inspired."  Dark, dark eyes flashed at Mike invitingly for a second, then flickered away as Jack moved to gather together dishes.  Mike caught a hint of a smile on the downturned face as he passed on the way to the sink, and quickly realized that he was being deliberately provoked.  The semi hard-on that he'd been adjusting himself around since Jack's little trick with the ladle quickly returned to life. Abandoning what was left of his meal, he rose and followed, pressing himself against Jack's back as the other man attempted to rinse his dishes.  But, Jack gave up all pretense as soon as Mike pressed a teasing kiss to the nape of his neck, spinning in his embrace and pouncing. There was no other word for the way that Jack initiated foreplay. He always managed to turn Mike into a gibbering mess in seconds, and kept him incoherent and delerious from that moment on.  But, not this time.  This time, Mike was going to set the pace.  He was going to take his time to savour that lean, wiry body.  He wasn't going to let Jack distract him with those too-skilled hands...even if he had to tie them down. Quickly, Mike snagged Jack's wrists even as he tried to slide his fingers down Mike's jeans.  Mike smiled at the puzzled, annoyed glare that earned him. "Uh-uh.  It's my turn this time, Counselor."  He watched as the dark eyes filled with a strange mixture of anticipation and anxiety.  He liked the anticipation, but could do without the other. Still holding Jack's wrists firmly, he captured his mouth gently and kissed him with soft thoroughness. He felt wiry muscles squirm against him, trying to deepen the kiss, but he held back, keeping it exploratory and teasing.  Finally, when he felt the body in his embrace relax and surrender control, he pulled away slowly. Jack remained limp in his arms, face upturned, eyes closed, licking his lips thoughtfully, as if trying to identify a familiar taste. Mike felt his heart rate quicken at the sight.  He had to resist every instinct telling him to just spin him around, bend him over, and bury himself as deep within that silken warmth as he could. But, no. No hard kitchen counter or slippery bathroom this time. He held himself in check, pulling Jack along as he led them upstairs, looking for the bedroom in the unfamiliar house. Jack clung to him silently, letting himself be transported along like a ragdoll and offering no directions. The brownstone was small, and Mike found the bedroom easily. The decor matched downstairs, with expensive tailored jackets co-mingling with T-shirts and jeans hanging from a variety of places.  Quickly, Mike deposited Jack on the bed, pulling his wrists above his head and making him grip the wooden bars of the headboard. "Keep your hands there, Counselor.  Think you can do this?" The dark almond-shaped eyes blinked slowly, then smiled up at him. "I'll try...but, it's hard to resist touching you.  Your skin is so...." Jack sighed, then bucked sinuously, rubbing the length of his body against Mike decadently, letting his body complete his sentence. Mike repressed a gasp, trying to restrain himself as Jack moved against him. A flicker of amusement in the slanted eyes confirmed his suspicions that Jack knew exactly what he was doing to him. God, but the man was sneaky!  Out of the corner of his eye, he spotted the solution to his problem.   Moving quickly, he reached up to the bedside table, grabbing the raw silk tie that was hanging off its corner.  The fabric was as smooth and cool as water, and just as soft.  He reached for one of Jack's wrists, then hesitated, asking silently for permission. Jack smiled slightly, and nodded, brushing Mike's cheek slowly before relinquishing his hand again. Mike bestowed a gentle kiss on the inside of the fine-boned wrist, then wrapped the cloth around it carefully.  Then, he looped the fabric through the bars on the headboard, and repeated his actions with Jack's other wrist. Then, he sat back to inspect his handiwork. Jack watched him, his lean frame deceptively relaxed looking. He looked calm, detached.  Only those dark elfin eyes gave away a hint of the fire beginning to simmer beneath.  Mike grinned, promising himself that the calmness would be the first to go. He surveyed the body splayed below him, trying to decide where best to strike, then realized that he'd barely ever gotten the chance to really explore Jack.  The man was so damned good at completely overtaking him during sex.  This would be his first chance to turn the tables, and he planned on taking full advantage.  Deciding to start with what was closest at hand, he moved down and began a trail of nipping kisses along Jack's left bicep, following the line of the slender, hard muscle towards his torso.  He felt the smooth flesh prickle under his lips, and smiled smugly.  He was just getting started. When Mike reached the edge of the short sleeve of Jack's undershirt, he traced its border carefully with the tip of his tongue, leaving a moist rim along the fabric, before continuing along his original path into the sensitive nook under Jack's arm. A soft, deliberate sigh whispered from up above, and the faint tremor he heard in it reassured him that he was having the desired effect.  He smiled, but didn't stop nibbling along the ridge of muscle through the thin cotton, tracing it to its juncture with Jack's chest.  Then, without warning, he dove his tongue into the nerve-rich crevice, letting Jack's scent--a mixture of cajun spices, fabric softener, and something that was distinctly Jack--surround his face.  The arm poised above him jerked, the muscles below his lips bulking momentarily as their owner forgot about the gentle but strong silk holding him still.  Mike chuckled in quiet triumph, then followed his original path along Jack's chest, his wet open-mouthed kisses causing the white cotton to cling to the skin below.  Eventually, he reached a small tent in the fabric where Jack's now-erect nipple stood at attention.  With an eager grin, Mike latched on, suckling and nipping fervently through the shirt. A muffled groan filtered down from the head of the bed, but Mike ignored it, working the sensitive bud of flesh with his mouth. Finally, when he felt the lean, hard body beneath him begin to writhe against him, he relented.  With one swift move, he tugged the undershirt up and over Jack's head, letting it dangle around his suspended wrists.  He looked down, mesmerized, at his captive.  Thick black hair powdered with grey fell in beautiful disarray into eldritch-slanted eyes.  The calm surface had evaporated, and Mike wanted to drown in the fires he saw in their depths. That sensitive mouth that always seemed on the verge of laughing was quirking up at the sides, as if Jack might break into snickers or choke out a cry at any given moment. Unable to resist, Mike leaned in for another kiss, losing himself for a moment in Jack's unbearable heat, letting the other man push up into his mouth with his tongue and do what he will. Even as Jack invaded his mouth, strong legs curled around his. They locked together, bodies coming together like puzzle pieces, and Mike found himself rocking mindlessly against Jack, falling under the spell of his dexterous seduction.  He pulled away sharply when he realized what was happening, producing a frustrated groan from the man in his arms. "Christ, Jack.  You're the only guy I know who can be tied down to the bed with someone on top of you and *still* try to take over. Stop trying to distract me." Jack moaned-chuckled.  "At least take off my jeans.  I'm dying here!" Mike sighed.  "You're missing the point here, Counselor.  You..." he pressed a sharp, biting kiss to the nipple he'd been working through the undershirt.  "...are not..."  Another bite-kiss on its neglected twin. "...in control."  He nibbled at the spasming muscle at the base of Jack's neck.  "Okay?" Jack, who had jumped and twitched at every nip, lay gasping below him, sloe eyes on fire. Still, he managed to nod and obediently untwined his legs from Mike's.   "Good.  Now, just lie there, nice and quiet for once, and let me work here." Mike cheerfully ignored the glare that produced, and went back to his interrupted explorations.  He resumed his kisses at the previously ignored nipple, working it until it stood as puckered and red as the first, then created a meandering path of open-mouthed nips, interspersed with soothing licks, down the heaving chest, nibbling at the fine, curling hair as he went.  He followed the dark line of hair bisecting Jack's pale skin down to his umbilicus, stopping to dip into the crevice with his tongue playfully, producing a muffled cry from the man trapped beneath him, then continued lower.  When he reached the denim waistband, he paused and looked up.  Jack looked back down at him, unconciously biting his lower lip, eyes smoldering. Mike held his gaze, grinning, as he slowly undid Jack's fly, one excruciating button at a time.  His grin only grew as he watched Jack's lashes flicker helplessly as the heavy, overheated weight of his erection was released from its denim trap.  Mike delved one hand carefully into the open fly, shelling out the swollen, tender scrotum, and chuckling at the shuddering, but obediently silent sigh that wracked Jack's body as he did. "Looks like I finally found a way to get the last word with you, Jack. Kincaid's been trying to find a way for weeks--should I let her in on my newfound secret?"  He laughed outright at the outraged glare he received, and Jack opened his mouth for a retort. But, whatever chastisement McCoy had in mind was quickly lost into a hoarse cry as Mike swallowed his length in one swift move.  Mike let himself drown in the sharp taste that was the perfect combination of tangy sweetness and bitterness for Jack McCoy, letting his teeth drag lightly against the fine, overheated skin.  Jack was surprisingly thick, but somewhat short, and Mike found that he could accomodate all of the fully engorged organ, letting the head occaisionally brush against the back of his throat.  He quickly discovered that if he did this while swallowing, the contraction of his throat caused Jack to flail and squirm most satisfyingly. Mike pulled away quickly, letting the cool air hit the wet, blood-hot cock in a rush, smiling at Jack's gasping cry.  Then, before the other man could even begin to recover from that latest trick, he struck again.  He circled the base with his tongue, then moved down further into the dark, moist curls till he found Jack's balls.  He outlined the shape of the spheres within their sac with his teeth and lips, tormenting the delicate, sensitive skin. Jack's hips had begun to buck helplessly, trying to match Mike's rhythm, which he deliberately kept altering.  Soon, though, he had to hold Jack's hips down to keep him under control.  When Jack's hoarse groans became steady and desperate, he pulled away. Black, black eyes stared up at him with tortured intensity from beneath thick, sweat-darkened hair. The slender, elegant hands were curled into tight fists around their silken bonds, and the equally slender, elegant chest heaved jaggedly.  Head thrown back in abandon, body twisting sinuously, Jack McCoy had never looked more beautiful, as far as Mike was concerned.  He sat back on Jack's thighs, straddling him, lost momentarily in the view... Until the hips beneath him bucked violently again.  Demanding that he continue where he left off.  Mike smiled, enjoying the desperate hunger he read in Jack's every move and breath, then decided that they'd both suffered enough.  Quickly, he stripped off his sweater and undershirt in one yank, tossing the bundle onto a nearby chair.   Then, he slid off Jack's body, resulting in a groaned protest, and proceeded to skim out of his jeans slowly, very aware of the molten-black eyes watching his every move from the bed.  He stepped out of his jeans, folded them, then did the same with his boxers. "For godsakes, Mike!  Stop fucking around!" Mike froze at the hissed demand, turning to look at Jack's supine, intensely aroused body cooly.  "You want me to stop, Jack?  Is that what you said?" Dark eyes glared fiercely at him, but his point was made. Jack gave a sharp negative shake of his head silently.  Mike smiled, then resumed folding his boxers, ignoring the frustrated moan that produced.  Finally, when he was done, he sat back next to Jack's hips, and began to slowly peel down the now-sticky jeans, leaving a trail of kisses as he went.  He let his mouth explore Jack's legs as thoroughly as he'd charted the rest of his body, nibbling and kissing his way along the lean, muscled thighs and across the bulking, hard calves, smiling as muscles and tendons twitched beneath his lips.  Eventually, the jeans dropped to the floor with a soft slap, and Jack....Jack was gloriously bare at last. Mike kissed his way back up Jack's legs, letting his hands and lips work together to cover every inch of skin.  As he moved up Jack's inner thighs, Jack parted his legs in invitation, hitching up his knees.  Despite his best efforts at restraint, Mike felt his vision temporarily fog in desire at the sight.  This was rapidly becoming his favorite sight in the world--Jack McCoy, splayed out and ready for the taking, unconsciously gorgeous in sumptuous abandon.  He moved from the soft inner thighs back up to the now-throbbing cock, giving it one last affectionate lick that made its owner buck wildly. "Where's your lube and condoms, Jack?"  Mike burrowed his face in the dark musky warmth just beneath the swollen sac, causing Jack to arch spasmically off the bed. "Th..the...top...dr..dr..drawer.  N...no condoms.  I want to f..feel you..." Mike hesitated as he retrieved the small tube from the drawer in the bedside table, one condom package already in hand. True, they had already had unprotected sex before--more out of blind lust than implicit trust, though.  "Jack..." Jack gave a gasping laugh.  "I'm clean, and I checked your records as soon as I found out who you were." Mike stared at him, caught between outrage and amusement. "Abusing your position again, Counselor?  Does the police commisioner know that you're rifling through police personnel files?" He squeezed Jack's balls gently even as he slipped a lubricant-slicked finger below to massage the tight muscle. Unable to answer, Jack screamed and heaved and convulsed around his touch.  Making his decision as soon as he heard that primal cry, Mike tossed away the condom and proceeded to coat himself liberally with one hand as gentle fingers readied Jack with the other. It would have to be fast--he'd pushed them both too far for it to last long, Mike realized with regret.  Oh, well...later.  For now, he pulled Jack's legs up over his shoulders, shuddering as he felt the bright heat of Jack's body against him, then pushed himself home smoothly.  Jack's gasping cry surrounded him along with the velvet heat of his body, till Mike could feel his presence enveloping him completely. They felt into a quick, harsh rhythm almost immediately, both already feeling themselves hurtling towards the precipice.  Mike moved above Jack, luxuriating in the succulent body beneath him, feeling every spasm and shudder as they rocked together. He leaned forward sharply as he felt the end approach, burrowing deeply into Jack's bottomless heat, reaching the silken tie that still held Jack captive.  With one yank, he set him free. Immediately, strong arms embraced him, pulled him deeper and deeper down. Long fingers clawed at his sholders, back, and buttocks, leaving lines of fire in their wake.  Mike reached down between their heaving bodies to grip Jack's weeping cock, pulling it in rhythm with their movements.  Jack gasped violently, one hand tangling itself in Mike's hair and pulling him down for a last breath-stealing kiss. Jack broke first, screaming hoarsely into the shared cavern of their mouths even as he erupted onto their bellies.  Impssibly hot, tight muscle convulsed around Mike, sending him careening off into a maelstorm of ectasy. He bucked, heaved, and shuddered violently, letting out a tormented, broken cry as he burst deep within Jack's embracing body. Mike had just enough strength left to break his fall slightly onto Jack's chest, still landing with enough force to knock a soft "umph" out of the smaller man. He slid carefully out of and off Jack's body.  Their limbs remained twined together, though, and Jack pulled him back for another deep kiss before they had completely regained their breaths.  Not frenzied this time. Calming, reassuring, with a soft undercurrent of passion still remaining.  Mike noted with exhausted dismay that they were both trembling. "God, Jack...we're gonna kill ourselves if we keep this up." Jack chuckled, then ran his fingers slowly through Mike's hair, brushing sweat-slicked tangles off his forehead.  "Ah, but what a way to go."  Mike sighed in weary happiness as Jack pressed a kiss to his forehead, still brushing his hair back soothingly.  He was drifting off to sleep when Jack's warm, husky voice brushed against him again.  "I've heard about people like you, but I'd never met one before..." The words more than the teasing tone made Mike open his eyes again to stare at Jack quizzically.  The older man was smiling at him with soft amusement. "Huh?  Whaddaya mean, people like me?" "Your eyes.  I've heard about people whose eyes change with their moods. I thought it was just a myth--till I met you." That made absolutely no sense.  Mike's eyes were just plain old muddy-brown, as far as he could remember.  He wanted to ask Jack what the hell he was talking about; he had a sneaking suspicion that he was being subtly made fun of...but, those long, skilled fingers were still running through his hair, and he could already feel consciousness leaving him. It would have to wait till later. "You're crazy, Jack." He smiled when he heard that lovely whisky chuckle again, and fell asleep to the sound of it. * * * Loud, heavy banging.  Again.  Again. <> No.  Can't.  Sit very, very still.  Don't make a sound.  It will be alright.  Just stay very still. <> Shh.  No, oh please, no, God.  Dear God, I promise not to do anything bad ever, ever again.  Just please keep this door closed.  Please, please, please, please, please... Banging, banging.  And, then a crash.  The door's hinges scream, and bend.... He started out of sleep with a gasp...a silent gasp, for he knew instinctively to be silent.  Be very, very still and very, very quiet. He blinked, but remained frozen as he waited for his brain to wake enough to tell him what was wrong, and where he was. Darkness.  Strange shapes of unfamiliar furniture.  Warmth under his cheek. A soft, rhythmic thudding.  A naked chest. Male.  The steady, slow heartbeat signifying sleep.  Jack.  Jack's bedroom. As the conclusions came to him in sequential bursts, Mike relaxed, his rigid, adrenalin-rushed body slowly disarming its `fight or flee' reflexes. He slowly rolled off of Jack's warm, prone body, regretting the loss of contact immediately.  Gently, he eased himself out of the other man's embrace, then out of the tangled sheets.  Moving in the dim silver light of a waning moon, he found his folded boxers and slipped them on.  Then, he padded silently out of the room, closing the door carefully behind him. Once out in the hall, he allowed himself a weary sigh.  Shit.  He hadn't had a nightmare since he started sleeping with Jack, and he'd hoped he'd finally hit upon a solution to his insomnia and disrupted nights.  But, apparently not.  The raw terror that had been fading steadily since he realized where he was was being replaced by the familiar restless unease which he knew from experience would probably dog him the rest of the night, flipping from fear to rage and back at the slightest provocation.  The safest thing to do now was to find a quiet, solitary place to wait for morning...which was probably still long hours away. Filled with an aching weariness, Mike slid down the wall to curl into a heap at the top of the narrow staircase.   He rested his head on his knees and tried not to think.  But, as usual, his brain betrayed him, and unwanted images and thoughts pushed against him. Dark memories, some recent, some ancient, descended upon him, and all he could do was hunch his shoulders and bear it.  And, wait for the sun. A tiny sound triggered his still hyper-alert senses, and he spun quickly to his right.  Golden eyes gazed at him from the lower steps. Damn.  He'd forgotten about the stupid cat. It took a tentative step towards him, and he focused his glare at it. Already, he could feel the directionless anger welling up in him--he wasn't in the mood for whatever crap the thing was trying to pull.  `One more step, kitty, and we'll see if cats really do have nine lives.' The animal seemed to sense his growing rage, and hesitated, one small paw held mid-air.  They stared at each other for a long moment, each gauging the other, each trying to read the other's unfamiliar silent cues.  Then, just as Mike was getting ready to break the stalemate by unceremoniously shoving the cat away, a sudden flicker of shadow against the wall made it start and leap.  With a strange, strangled mew, it jumped threateningly at the dancing shadows on the wall, stalking them.  Mike watched, captivated despite himself at the graceful mix of lethal predatory instinct and playfulness as it tracked a flickering shadow on the staircase, and pounced. Unfortunately, shadows are by their nature insubstantial.  The animal went right through the flickering patch of light and thudded into the wall. Overbalancing, the rotund body tipped over the side of the next step down, landing with an outraged muffled hiss, its tail still visible over the step's ledge. Mike chuckled. Golden eyes resurfaced a moment later, looking completely indifferent, as if falling on its ass was all part of its original plan. Then, the eyes focused slightly to Mike's left.  He looked down, and saw another shadow flicker across the floor there.  A quick glance upwards explained its origin--a skylight in the ceiling, and an overhanging branch silhouetted by moonlight.  Suddenly, a warm, soft mass thumped against his leg.  He looked down to see the cat again.  Its last pounce had sent it skidding across the parquet floor, and it had come to a stop belly-up against his thigh.  Round caramel-coloured eyes stared up at him from between upturned paws, and a tiny pink tongue lined with tiny dagger teeth appeared as it mewed again. "Shh..."  Mike hushed quietly, then reached out tentatively to brush the soft downy fur on the animal's belly.  Far from protesting, the golden eyes closed in relaxed satisfaction, and a thunderously loud purring filled the narrow hall. Mike snickered. So much for shutting it up. A distant thud caused Mike to flinch. The cat, however, only opened one round eye temporarily, then let it fall shut again. Footsteps followed, then the bedroom door creaked open. "Mike?  You OK?" Mike sighed.  "Yeah.  Sorry I woke you.  I was trying to be quiet, but this thing's noisier than a Mac truck." Jack rubbed his face and hair sleepily, standing most of his thatch on end, then knelt down behind Mike, curling his arms around Mike's torso. Normally, the touch would have irritated him so soon after a nightmare, when he was still prickly and edgy.  But, the cat's antics had lightened his mood considerably, and Jack's warmth was too tempting to resist.  He let Jack pull him into his embrace, resting the back of his head on Jack's shoulder as warm hands travelled along his chest--not arousing, just relaxing. "I'm used to Chloe's nighttime antics.  You should hear her when she starts hallucinating mice at 2:00am."  Those soothing fingers returned, running rhythmically through Mike's hair again.  He welcomed their return with a contented sigh, closing his eyes in unconscious mimicry of the cat next to him. "So, what woke you?" "I felt you leave--I'm a light sleeper by nature.  I figured your were just going to the washroom.  But, when you didn't come back, I came to see if maybe you got lost in the vast halls of Chateau McCoy."  Mike chuckled, then sighed appreciatively as soft kisses were pressed into his temple.  "Can you tell me, Mike?" "Hmm?"  Mike was losing himself in the movement of Jack's fingers through his hair. "Can you tell me what it was about?  The nightmare?" Mike tensed instinctively at the word...at the very thought of discussing the images he was still trying to shake.  "No." "Fair enough.  Can you tell me what brought it on?" "How the hell should I know?" Mike snapped, annoyed and wanting Jack to leave well enough alone and just keep doing what he was doing with his lips and fingers. "Well," Jack continued patiently, uncharacteristically ignoring his sharp tone.  "You've been sleeping just fine in my arms for the past week.  But, tonight, something woke you.  Probably the same thing that was bothering you when I called earlier tonight. I could hear it in your voice." Mike was both uncomfortable and comforted by Jack's eerie perceptiveness. He didn't like anyone being able to read him like that--especially not someone he was having sex with.  On the other hand, Jack's embrace was warm and reassuring...and he was so damned tired.  Maybe...maybe... "We opened a new case a few days ago.  It should land on your desk soon enough.  Madsen...Laura Madsen." "I read about it in the papers.  Publishing mogul, right?" "That's her. Just vanished off a bridge." "Any suspects yet?" "Yeah.   Ten to one that we've already got the guy.  Her scumbag husband." "Hmm....scumbag, according to whom?" "According to pretty much everybody who knew him--including me when I heard the 911 call his wife made while he was banging down the door to beat her up again." The fingers kept brushing through his hair, caressing his scalp thoroughly. He could feel himself melting against Jack's chest. "The guy broke down a door to get to her?" "Nah.  Their kid opened the door to let him in.  Can you believe it?"  The old anger surfaced again momentarily. "Shit.  Still, what's a kid to do?" Mike frowned, feeling himself tense again.  "Shut up and hide. Crawl out a window.  Maybe just freeze in place and start praying.  Definitely *DON'T* open the damned door." A soft sigh brushed his cheek, then the whiskey voice continued. "It's hard to know what you'd do in that position as a kid." "*I* know."  Mike growled. A pause.  The fingers kept stroking, though.  "Your dad?" "My mother." Another pause, then the fingers tugged gently, tilting his head back.  Soft lips pressed against his.  He let himself go, let Jack deepen the kiss, lying pliantly against him. When Jack finally pulled away, he remained where he was, face upturned and look up into Jack's face. The other man was looking off into the distance somewhere, the moonlight lighting his sharp, raptor profile in soft silver tones. "With me, it was my father." Mike started slightly, uncertain what he was hearing, and unsure that he really wanted to hear more.   But, Jack's fingers kept running unhurriedly through his hair even as his other hand brushed his shoulder and chest in tandem.  The tiny flicker of panic faded and died under his touch. "In his case, though, he never laid a hand on me. Nah, his methods were a little more subtle.  Hell, I didn't even know that what he did to me constituted abuse until I was in my thirties.  All I knew was that I spent the first two decades of my life hearing daily what a complete waste of skin I was."  He chuckled, but it wasn't the warm, whiskey sound that Mike was familiar with. This was a harsher rasp.  "Hell, he even accused my poor mother regularly of having slept around.  No way that his son could be such a puny, useless runt.  His *real* son would be a big, strong bully just like him. He used to drag me out of my room--where I spent most of my time hiding--whenever his friends came over, and they'd all laugh drunkenly as they tried to guess who my real father must be.  The local wino.  The neighbourhood priest.  Maybe even one of the black labourers, which would explain why my hair was black while his was blond. I actually believed it, and kept hoping that someday my real dad--some big, hulking black guy--would come and beat the crap out of him and take me away." Mike listened, fascinated despite himself.  Never in his life would he have guessed of such a childhood for Jack McCoy, one of the proudest, most aggressive men he'd ever run into.  Or maybe, this was the reason why... "And, then, one night, when I was about twelve, I was watching him count out the bribes he'd taken during that day, and trying to figure out how much more he could expect from each contributor by the end of the week.   And, I suddenly realized that I'd already figured out all the sums in my head in minutes, while he was still working away, grumbling to himself, adding up incorrectly.  And, *then* I realized that one of his payoffs had ripped him off, and he hadn't even noticed it." Mike had turned slightly in Jack's embrace during his recounting, to better watch his face.  Right now, he was wearing a tight, bitter smile that Mike remembered easily from their infamous second meeting at Hogan Place.  "Did you say anything?" Jack shook his head--a sharp, curt movement.  "Nope.  Not just then.  I waited, and watched, keeping track of who tricked him and how often.  I quickly realized that many of his so-called friends were actually scamming him and laughing about it behind his back.  Most people considered him little more than a patsy.  I waited till I finished high school and got a full scholarship to the University of Illinois.  I packed, went down to the kitchen, and handed him a list of who had scammed him, how they did it, and how often.  Then, I told him that although he might be bigger, I was smarter--and therefore the better of the two--and that, one day, I'd be one of those guys in suits that he tipped his hat to as he passed on the street. Then, I left." Mike curled a hand around the smaller one still travelling idly across his chest, and was pleased when fingers intertwined acceptingly with his. "Did you ever see him again?" "I went back there just after my last promotion about seven years ago.  My mother was in the hospital, dying with what turned out to be cervical cancer.  He didn't recognize me at first when I walked in.  Thought I was a doctor."  Jack's smile was more of a grimace.  "Took off his hat." Mike turned further in Jack's clasp, till he could wrap his own arms around Jack and look directly into that shadowed face. What he saw in the normally laughing eyes was darkly familiar, and he could only think of one way to deal with it.  Carefully, he leaned forward and pressed his lips to Jack--gently at first, then parting his lips and inviting the other man in. Jack didn't hesitate, delving deep into his mouth, their tongues dancing together lazily.  The fingers that had never ceased their travels through Mike's hair moved to cup his head, pressing him closer for a moment, letting him drown in Jack's wet heat, then let him pull away slowly. "Come to bed, Detective.  Sleep if you can.  If not, then just lie next to me. Talk to me, or don't--whatever you want.  Just know that *I* know. That I can understand if you want me to.  OK?" Mike smiled, relieved to see the warmth return to the canted eyes.  He nodded, and was rewarded with a familiar playful grin. "Thank God.  My back's killing me." * * * When Mike next awoke, it was to golden sunlight streaming through the window, and directly into his face.   He blinked and turned over with a groan, unwilling to face reality just yet.  He burrowed into the unfamiliar bedsheets, letting the combined scent of linen and Jack sift over him. Something warm and vibrating was pressed against his naked back. "Mmm...Jack..."  He pressed back into the warm body...the warm, small, furry body.  Since when was Jack furry? He sat up with a start, and looked down--into round, golden eyes looking back up at him with mild annoyance at his sudden movement.  "Oh, gross! What the hell are *you* doing here?!" The bedroom door suddenly swung open, and Jack came in, wearing an open bathrobe and clinging, knit boxers and bearing a tray laden with food. Mike's mouth watered, and he wasn't sure at which of the two stimuli. "Finally, it awakens!" Mike grinned, his outrage at the cat's indiscretion forgotten in its owner's welcome presence.  "Morning." "Afternoon, actually."  Jack chuckled at his surprised expression, depositing the tray between them on the bed.  The scent of scrambled eggs, toasted buns, and coffee filled the small bedroom.  "Hope you didn't have any plans for this morning, Detective." Mike licked his lips unconsciously as he took in the view of Jack, bathrobe open, pouring coffee.  "Nope."  He received the offered cup.  "Thanks."  He took an appreciative gulp.  It seemed that Jack's culinary skills extended to coffee.  He smiled and leaned back against the bed's headboard, letting the rich, strong taste settle through him, waking him slowly. "How about for the rest of the week-end?" Mike looked up, but Jack's eyes were lowered, studiously watching as he stirred his coffee.  Something about the whole scene--the two of them sitting on Jack's unmade bed, having breakfast in their underwear--made Mike want to make an excuse and run back to the isolated safety of his apartment. He was always careful to maintain the appropriate distance between himself and those he slept with.  But...but, he and Jack had agreed to be friends, not just lovers.  He remembered Jack's heartfelt confession last night, and the way that he'd stayed awake, talking to Mike about work, sports, the weather, anything until Mike fell asleep again.  His actions were similar to those of Elizabeth or Lennie, Mike's two closest friends.  And, Mike had lost count of the times that he'd stayed up with either of them, recounting old demons or just waiting for the light to come back.  This could be the same, right? He looked back at Jack, and caught elfin eyes, uncharacteristically sombre, watching him expectantly, waiting for his answer.  He smiled.  "I leave my family obligations for Sunday afternoons, but as for the rest of the week-end..." He finished his coffee in one long drag, then lay back down amongst the dissarayed pillows and sheets.  "I'm free so far." The dark, dark eyes lit up with familiar fires, and Jack grinned in return. "So far, huh?"  He quickly moved the breakfast tray to the floor, then reached under the bed.  When Mike saw what was in his hand, a sharp thrill chased the last remnants of sleep from him. Jack gripped the silken tie, then quickly straddled his hips.  "But, not for long." The End  (...heehee..) January 1998